什么时候是个头, 我好累...

kallyli

因为用公司的电脑， 打中文很不方便，我还是写英文好了，昨天，看了一天书，用脑过度，大脑兴奋，一夜未眠，早上起来，突然想，我到底在做什么？我图了个什么？

考完gmat， 进入business school, 无休止的考试，一门接一门，累得人半死，好容易考完所有考试，又要找实习，投简历， 面试，好不容易找到实习，又要拼命干，想留下来，好不容易给老板留了点好印象，又赶上金融低谷，各个投行都在裁员，我们公司没有裁员，但不能招聘新员工。于是，现在，又要开始找工作了。每天的生活，学语言，日语，德语，法语， 学计算机，学编程，读公司的产品，上公司的培训课，做论文，做报告， 查招聘信息，做SHL,但仔细想想, 就算最后找到顶尖投行, 又能如何? 工作要面对多少压力, 要看多少人在和自己较劲, 有是新一轮的制定目标, 努力, 真是永无休止...I am wondering what I am doing? Is this the life I wanna lead? What is the true meaning of life? Isn't it something that makes me feel excited and happy? Maybe I am only a creature who never understands how to live in the world. How ridiculous!

I talked to my friend a few days ago. She failed in her college entrance exam and went to a second class university in China. She cannot go to top banks, 500 companies, top business schools, but she has something that I do not have, and  something I am working hard to gain, that is happiness. She is excellent I should admit, and beautiful. She never has to think about surpassing someone, since she is already the first, she never has to be afraid of losing, since she is gaining more than anyone else around her. She never knows how big and competitive the outside world is, but she does not bother to know it, since she is already satisfied. She is happy, I envy her.

I am scared, that I am running on a wheel, busy all day long, feeling I am gaining, achieving, conquering, and one day, when I look up, I suddenly realize that I have gained nothing except exhaustion.

[此贴子已经被作者于2008-8-5 23:48:47编辑过]

crownwang7128

Same feeling as you, although I am not so exhausted as you now. I finished my PhD in 4 years and got an job offer from a big company in the US without working as a postdoc, which is very difficult in my field. However, I am still looking forward to entering top B-schools in the next few years. Life is endingless, so is our struggle for a better status......

It is even tougher for a girl be successful in her career, because a girl will lose even more for any achievements. Find a boy and get married. This might help you out. Or go back to China and live a easier life.

ivyer

别心情那么差哈～

1）人多少都要经历些懈怠期，人总有开心和不开心的时候，现在你只是感觉特别累，撑过这一段就好了

2）问问自己到底喜欢什么，除了钱、别人眼中的成功之外，你还想要什么？

3）知足常乐和积极进取之间，本来就是很难平衡的，别对自己要求太高。但也不要太出世了，人生在世，九苦一甜，大家的快乐程度都差不多，你羡慕的那个她，也没多开心，自己的烦恼也一堆呢

4）多做一些让自己开心的事情，多接近大自然，和朋友在一起，多看看蓝天绿树小松鼠

5）没有答案的时候就不要想答案，别把结果看的太重，只是你人生的一种option而已

seable

When you look back 10 years later, you won't regret what you did~~~That's all it counts. I think some poeple are born to fight with life, others are just enjoy what they have.

You can always choose your life.

Personally, I enjoy the turbulence during my life. A peaceful life is just not for me.

yaoyao99

Hi Kally, great to see you again, =)  Sorry to hear you feeling this way.  I can only offer a few food for thoughts.

1. The grass is always greener on the other side.  You probably won't be happy living your friend's life.  There's a reason you pursued something different.

2. The glass can be half empty or half full, it's really is up to you.

3. Sounds like you're putting all your hopes in one basket.  Might be helpful to look around for other places to find fulfillment and pleasure in life.  Good luck!

GSBDream2006

以下是引用kallyli在2008-8-5 23:29:00的发言：

因为用公司的电脑， 打中文很不方便，我还是写英文好了，昨天，看了一天书，用脑过度，大脑兴奋，一夜未眠，早上起来，突然想，我到底在做什么？我图了个什么？

考完gmat， 进入business school, 无休止的考试，一门接一门，累得人半死，好容易考完所有考试，又要找实习，投简历， 面试，好不容易找到实习，又要拼命干，想留下来，好不容易给老板留了点好印象，又赶上金融低谷，各个投行都在裁员，我们公司没有裁员，但不能招聘新员工。于是，现在，又要开始找工作了。每天的生活，学语言，日语，德语，法语， 学计算机，学编程，读公司的产品，上公司的培训课，做论文，做报告， 查招聘信息，做SHL,但仔细想想, 就算最后找到顶尖投行, 又能如何? 工作要面对多少压力, 要看多少人在和自己较劲, 有是新一轮的制定目标, 努力, 真是永无休止...I am wondering what I am doing? Is this the life I wanna lead? What is the true meaning of life? Isn't it something that makes me feel excited and happy? Maybe I am only a creature who never understands how to live in the world. How ridiculous!

I talked to my friend a few days ago. She failed in her college entrance exam and went to a second class university in China. She cannot go to top banks, 500 companies, top business schools, but she has something that I do not have, and  something I am working hard to gain, that is happiness. She is excellent I should admit, and beautiful. She never has to think about surpassing someone, since she is already the first, she never has to be afraid of losing, since she is gaining more than anyone else around her. She never knows how big and competitive the outside world is, but she does not bother to know it, since she is already satisfied. She is happy, I envy her.

I am scared, that I am running on a wheel, busy all day long, feeling I am gaining, achieving, conquering, and one day, when I look up, I suddenly realize that I have gained nothing except exhaustion.

That is true, when you move upward, you get to compete with more powerful, more strong competitors. No one wana be defeat, so do whatever you can, no matter what is wrong or right... hehe....just beat it!!!

 

 

loserxx

说这种话真矫情，特别是说你朋友那一段

wame

this is life, sis

ambrosecelin

活好当下

马甲007

人啊，真怪。
说股票是毒品，可都在玩。
说金钱是罪恶，可都在捞。
说女人是祸水，可都想要。
说高处不胜寒，可都在往上爬。
说烟酒伤身体，可就是不戒。
说天堂最美好，可谁都不想去！

与楼主共勉！