[讨论][求助] How to regain the lost confidence

qtgemini

have been thinking about it for a while and finally decide to post this note.  I was a straight A student in college, and got a decent job afterwards, but going to MBA has always been my dream. so I took my GMAT last year, and it was a horrible experience.  Because I work full time, so I only got the night time to study.  After studying for a few months, I decided to take my GMAT.  I don't want to sound arragant, but I have always been confident about myself.  I thought as long as I study hard, I can get decent scores.  Everything goes well until few days before the test,  I took a sample test from Princeton and only got 650.  All of a sudden, I got extremely nervous.  Then for the next couple of days till the test,  I think I just got hit very hard.  I don't remember how I left the test center, all I know is that my mind was completely blank.  I don't know if it's just me or other people have this problems too when they get nervous, when I stare at the computer screen, my mind was blank, I couldn't understand anything.  I panic, I thought about all the hard work I put in, being sleep deprived, wake up early, every effort was for this test.  I couldn't focus, couldn't think, or think too much.  After that, I wasn't able to read for a while, whenever I stare at the computer screen, my mind is blank. 

It's been a while now, I know I should take it another try.  but somehow I couldn't gain my confidence back.  whenever I try to study, it just remind me of that horrible experience, one of the worst nightmare. I never thought being a straight A student myself, I did that bad in GMAT.  I used to be confident of myself, if I want something, I go get it. but now, I feel like I am very emotionally weak.  I used to be so confident and self-assured, and now I am not.  I lost my confidence, I don't trust myself, I can't find the "old Me".  Thinking back all these years, I am the nervous type,  I do fine normally,  but whenever it comes to important test, I panic.  The more important it is to me, the more nervous I get.   I know I can't be like this, I know I need to study, I know thinking too much is wasting my time, I hate being so emotionally weak.  I need to pull myself together, but I can't take this any more.  What should I do?

soniashi

我觉得您这个经历非常正常

我是英语专业的学生 成绩不错

然后学了1年GMAT 测试 460

又学了半年 非常努力 测试 540

再学了3个月 非常非常努力 测试 690

去考试：670

再过一个月再考

只要你有钱 GMAT可以考10000次

什么重要的呢？

我不知道哪里来这么多NN，反正我身边的700+都是奋斗N次的

qtgemini

Thanks a lot for your comments, Sonia.I guess everybody struggled in GMAT in some degree. I am just scared that it will look bad on the history record. 

Good luck on your test next month!

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