Hi guys, Now I feel much better, and I will email Boston College later. When I look at what experienced this year, all my trouble is caused by lack of confidence. I should not take that job interview at first first, because I already decided to apply for PhD at that time. But I took it just because I had never interviewed and want to have a trial. (a bad reason) And when I got the job offer, I became so worried of no PhD offer and no another job offer. That anxiety forced me to make my decision. I should have more confidence at that time. Later I found job in industry is not so bad. All my professor support my decision, they all think two years' experience will make me a better teacher and a better idea contributor.So I made up my mind to work for a while first and reapply in a couple years. Now I am anxious again after got these two interviews, still because of a lack of confidence. If now I change my mind again, the reason would be fear of no offer next time, "chance never come back again". But I think I should keep the last part of my confidence this time. Maybe you are right, jmxft. But I believe future chance depends more on my work in coming years. I believe if I work hard enough, I will be much stronger in a couple years. No matter what those professors think, at least I believe I will be a better researcher candidate. So I quit, and best luck with you guys. |