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jillgaocn · 发表于 2009-12-29 23:50:11

I am a little frustrated today after getting the GMAT essay score, 4.5 out of 6, 37% percentile. I am not good at writing, always have been that way. My tofel back 8 years ago has been 99% while my writing is only 3.5 out of 6.

After so many years, my writing is still the same, not much improvement even after staying in USA for 8 years. I began to doubt two things: Can I deal with the challenge in MBA and am I right for MBA?

My writing, the heart throbbing pain, is going to be an obstacle in MBA class. The stress in part-time MBA always hangs around me. Can I enjoy the life like this for the next 3 years? I don't know.

If I don't choose MBA, will I reget? I don't know. I am not a person with the strong opinion. Maybe I should be content with my life right now, a loving bf, a stable job. I am over 30 and begin to settle down. "When are you going to get married, buy a house and have a baby?" My mom always asked. Silence is my response.

Looking back, I found myself always follow the flow, like many people in this society. I studied hard because many people do so; I began to prepare GRE and came to USA because my parents wanted me; I went to big 4 because it is a lot of people's dream; I came out of big 4 and went to the private when i was the first year senior because other senior accountants who left the firm convinced me to do so;

Now, working in a global corporation and doing the similar jobs again and again every quarter end, I realized that I should have stayed at big 4 for longer. I did learn a lot and I missed the energy there; Now, to fill the emptiness and regret in my life, I began to study MBA again because my friends who just graduated from UC strongly recommended me to do so. I have the perfect background, they said.
I did what they said. I passed GMAT and began to write an essay for my part-time mba. I did not know what to say. maybe it is because i am really bad at writing, maybe it is because i don't always have my own opinion, maybe because ...

I dont know what i should do. Instead of encouraging you, i might give you more confusion. please don't get impacted by my post and just pursue your dream...

kennethmt · 发表于 2009-12-30 00:07:52

LZ, 我也不知道怎么说了。我的第一感觉就是你的英文写作有点中文的味道在里面。但是写作不好和读不读MBA关系也不是那么直接吧。自己冷静思考一下自己的理想和目标再做决定吧。加油。

cannedpineapple · 发表于 2009-12-30 06:37:04

Your writing actually looks very fluent, lucid and clear to me. It is not easy to express confusion, and you've done that well.

As for your question. Your friends, colleagues, and family are probably being sincere in telling you what they would have done, but they are not you- only you will be able to reflect on your own thoughts.

That's probably one of the greatest values of the MBA application process. To stop, think about what matters to you, and reflect on your life to date. If, at the end of the process, you decide that the MBA is not right for you, I would go with that flow. Three years and a lot of $ is no small investment; but even bigger is that if you've finally started to find what you truly want, then you should support yourself, and have the courage to follow through. Otherwise you may always find that you are questioning yourself, and it's hard to truly be happy that way.

Good luck.

Jason

doucevoyage · 发表于 2009-12-30 10:08:43

As Jason already pointed out, your English is not bad. Just to make you feel better, my GMAT essay score wasn't great either. I had a difficult topic, and I couldn't really think, so I choked, and my score reflected that. But would that deter me from going after I want? No.

Afterall, GMAT writing score is only a SMALL portion of your total package, it's only a number and a percentile. Moreover, it is a impulsive evaluation of how you perform, I think the essays would tell more of who you truly are and what you want to achieve.

Honestly, being able to achieve all these at such a young age shows that you are capable. So I wouldn't doubt whether you can handle the workload. Now, the bigger question is, do you truly want this MBA. I think nobody but you can answer this question, and that takes time.

Good luck.

likelike · 发表于 2009-12-31 14:18:14

老实说，读下来我的感觉，英语很fluent，但是一看就知道是一中国人写的；你的背景也许适合MBA，但根据你文章对自己过往的介绍，我觉得可能读MBA也不是你最想要的，或者，换句话说，自己的个性真的适合读MBA吗？先想想what matters most to yourself. Good luck

jillgaocn · 发表于 2010-1-1 02:10:43

Thank you so much for all the suggestions. I decide to prepare for the essay -- I hope through the process, I can figure it out.

Wish you all the best and Happy New Year to you!

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